In all honesty, I’m a terrible dancer….
On my own, I am hopeless on a dance floor. I get nervous, and don’t know what to do. I feel like anything I could even think of doing, could be a failure. Everything ends up being quite choppy and uncoordinated. I’m missing the details that make great dancing so beautiful.
Ever since I was the 6-yr old flower girl in my big brother’s wedding, I have loved dancing with my dad. He takes the lead, so all I have to do is follow. I just let him guide me on the steps and turns. When I dance with him, I feel graceful. The dance looks poise, beautiful, and purposeful.
I've come to see my life as a continual dance.
I can be very stubborn in life. I always ‘need’ to know what I’m doing, when I’m doing it, where I’m doing it, and why I’m doing it. If I’m involved in something, I like to know the details.
I’m constantly trying to look ahead… Trying to figure out the next steps of the dance before I’ve been taught them. I try to figure out what’s, when’s, where’s, and why’s of my life. I want to be the one controlling those things.
But I get so stressed when I try to figure out every aspect of my life… by myself. I get nervous and worried. I don’t know what to do. I start thinking that anything I do could be a failure. I miss the simple joys that make life beautiful.
I know the peace that comes from letting God take the lead. I’ve experienced the beauty, the joy, and the purposefulness that comes from following Him.
And yet, I often find myself trying to lead and determine my own steps…
But when I look at my life… my dance is choppy when I’m in control, it’s stressful and far from beautiful. It lacks peace.
I need to let God take the lead, for then my dance has purpose. It has beauty. It has grace. It has poise. I need to stay in step in with the Lead, and turn as He guides me… I need to let God take the lead.